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Christopher West with Theology of the Body at SJVCS

September 17, 2009 Leave a comment

090917_SJVCS-Christopher-West-Theology-of-the-BodyToday my seminary friends at St John Vianney College Seminary in Miami were blessed with a day of lectures on Pope John Paul II’s ” Theology of the Body” by renown speaker Christopher West, founder of the Theology of the Body Institute.

I’m guessing his lecture was very similar to the 2-day lecture he gave at IPF this past summer on “Priestly Celibacy and the Redemption of Sexuality.”   See day #1 at IPF (plus video of Christopher West lectures).  See day #2 at IPF.

current news item:  Following debate, two bishops affirm ‘strong support’ for Christopher West

Weblinks to Theology of the Body resources:

[thanks to Javier Barreto for the picture]

Bishop Clark on vocations & discernment

September 15, 2009 Leave a comment

Clinical Pastoral Education (CPE) reflections

I was looking for blog posts about experiences in hospital Pastoral Care.  I found some great reflections by someone who did volunteer work in a Clinical Pastoral Education (CPE) program.  Although we didn’t get much formal training in my hospital work this past summer at IPF in Omaha, NE, some of these reflections could have been helpful:

1.  The nature of loss

2.  Agendas and the chaplaincy

3.  When someone asks “Why?”

4.  Assessing spiritual needs

5.  The needs of the dying

6.  Questions in pastoral care

Brooklyn Bishop at St Mark’s Parish

090830-1207_Brooklyn-Auxiliary-Bishop-Octavio-Cisneros-at-St-Mark-ParishMASS — today at St Mark the Evangelist Catholic Church (in Southwest Ranches, FL), a visiting friend of Fr Whyte presided the Mass.  Auxiliary Bishop Octavio Cisneros of the Diocese of Brooklyn celebrated Mass.  Even though the Deacon did a good homily, I wish the Bishop shared his wisdom over the readings.  There was also a long announcement encouraging involvement in ministries, especially Religious Education.  The Bishop supplemented both talks with great insight into tapping into our Baptism to be instruments of the Holy Spirit evangelizing wherever we can.  Catechesis is a critical part of our faith that we should all be involved in … whether on the receiving end to grow in our intimacy of our faith or the giving end as catechists to our own families or to others.  He also shared gratitude for the parish to having the weekly tradition of families taking home a Vocation Cup to pray for the response to God call in all our lives, whether it be priesthood, the religious life, or marriage.  He’s a very personable and holy man.

prayer for God’s Will

August 26, 2009 2 comments

My Lord God I have no idea where I am going.
I do not see the road ahead of me.
I cannot know for certain where it will end.
Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so.
But I believe that my desire to please you does in fact please you.
And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing.
I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire.
And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it.
Therefore I will always trust you though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death.
I will not fear for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.
Amen.

[a favorite prayer from Thomas Merton] — thanx Gigi for the reminder!

being a summer chaplain with poverty

August 17, 2009 2 comments

I found an article in the Florida Catholic about Jim Grebe, a 3rd year Theologian seminarian at St Vincent DePaul Regional Seminary, whose summer assignment was a chaplain at Baptist Hospital in Pensacola.  It reminded me of my own experience over this past summer at IPF as a volunteer chaplain 2 afternoon each week at Alegent Health Immanuel Medical Center in Omaha, NE.

090228_IPF-Hospital-Pastoral-group-1As a strong introvert, my assignment at a hospital was a welcomed challenge that transformed any “preparations” that I could have made into simple “presence and prayer” that I had to rest in to make it through fruitfully.  My general progression was from Post-Intensive Care (PINS), Physical Rehab, Cancer, ICU and then Behavioral Health (mostly adults).  Each unit, as well as each individual room, brought their own challenges and blessings.  Going into rooms “cold” without much knowledge of condition or spiritualities left me at the mercy of Christ dependent on Him and allow the Holy Spirit to work without having to “try so hard” under my own abilities.

In identifying the poverty in those I ministered to, I came to recognize my own poverty that brings empathy with the poverty of Christ.  As I was stepping out in faith “giving” ministry unselfishly, I identified with the “heart of Christ” — then, in reflection, the receiving became more pure and made me more receptive to pure desires with greater confidence in the Spirit.  I found that praying within my own poverty opened opportunities in intimate relationship with God both in private prayer and with those ministered to.

On strong example was my first experience with a patient in ICU on a respirator, unable to speak a response to the open-ended questions I was trained to ask.  I quickly retreated in fear to my superior Josh, who help adjust my approach and engagement.  I returned to the patient with slightly more confidence in myself while becoming growingly dependent on the Holy Spirit to fill my poverty in encountering the non-verbal Christ with my “heart of Christ” in a distinct moment of Presence in my presence.  Using simple words of encouragement to comfort, taking time to ask important yes/no questions, and listening to the feeling of a hand-squeeze for an answer was a moment of fullness of grace.  Taking the experience to prayer and spiritual direction was easily seen as a growing echo to listen less to the words of my thoughts and more to the feelings of my heart when discerning with perseverance to God’s voice to me.

Thank you to all that ministered to me in the experience … Hospital staff, Pastoral Ministry staff, IPF staff and the Archdiocese of Miami for sending me on assignment.  I was truly blessed and I prayer all that I touched were indeed “touched” as I was.

Samsung Alias 2

samsung-alias-2-comboI used a overdue upgrade credit toward a new cell phone replacing my beloved 4 year old Motorola E815 that I’ve been using to take virtually all my pictures throughout my time in seminary and posted on this blog site.

I don’t text very much and didn’t really consider a keyboard phone, but the Verizon store had a Samsung Alias 2 on display that I couldn’t stop looking at.  Even though the buttons are smaller then I’m used to, there’s lots of them for quick access to everything and their functions change several ways with a QWERTY Magic keypad.  I miss the round dial that I’m used to (that I believe the Alias 1 had), but the extras seem to make up for it.  The camera is a 2 megapix (compared to my 1.5), but is a big difference.

I like it a lot.

my brothers @ St Vincent De Paul Regional Seminary

August 10, 2009 2 comments

Today is arrival day for new Theologian seminarians at St Vincent De Paul Regional Seminary in Boyton Beach, FL.  Since I discerned leaving seminary formation just recently, I didn’t need to go, but I wanted to tell my classmates and seminary brothers personally about my discernment.  Luck for me, one of my brothers needed a ride, so I offered to drive him and his stuff (including “piano”) up there.

sonic-drive-inIt was great to see each other after the summer break, but sad having to say I wouldn’t be in formation with them this year.  Everyone was very supportive and understanding, but I didn’t want my leaving to effect their own vocational journey.  I know from experience that guys that left did remind me of my own discernment in subtle ways that, left ignored, may add to doubt, but when faced, could help grow in confidence in my vocational journey.

I still hope to keep in touch with most of them, through phone, Facebook and food (Sonic is right across the street).

God bless you guys and stay holy!

leaving seminary formation

August 10, 2009 1 comment

Over the last two years in seminary formation at St John Vianney College Seminary, I have been gifted with the opportunity and tools to help in my discernment of a vocation to the priesthood.  The support, encouragement and growth were especially evident in my summer assignment at the Institute for Priestly Formation (IPF) in Omaha, NE.  My summer was graced with regular spiritual direction, tools in deepening prayer, an 8-day Ignatian Silent Retreat, apostolic work in hospital pastoral service, courses on sexuality, diocesan priestly spirituality and liturgy, and the fellowship of brother seminarians from around the country.

Throughout my summer experience at IPF, I spend considerable time in serious prayer and discernment with a gifted spiritual director that helped me recognize an intimacy with the Lord that brought overwhelming joy and peace.  I came to realize that my journey with the Lord at this point in my life would call for leaving seminary formation in order to pursue stronger desires of my heart.  This decision, when brought to prayer over some time, has come with a confidence in the Holy Spirit that radiates peace in my heart.

I know this news comes with some sadness from the Archdiocese of Miami for losing a seminarian, but know that I will continue discerning the Lord’s plan for me in all that I do.  I wish to express the deepest gratitude to Archbishop Favalora and the Archdiocese of Miami for their prayer, support, attention, tools and opportunity to discernment a vocation to the priesthood.  Thank you and know I will continue to support vocations and sharing my own faith journey to others encouraging the Body of Christ to discern their own unique roles to grow the Kingdom of God.

back from IPF

I just got back from IPF in Omaha yesterday.  I’m trying to get settled and I need to see some close friends and priests to share and discuss my experience over the summer in relation to my discernment of a priestly vocation.

I miss IPF but it’s good to be home.

feeling & healing @ IPF

I’m still here at IPF (Institute for Priestly Formation) in Omaha, Nebraska feeling & healing in prayer through all the experiences each day.

Sorry I haven’t posted … I’m trying to get the most of all that’s available … not to miss any opportunities to grow in graces as the Lord reveal more of my identity each day … discerning His plans for me.

I was randomly (not to say God doesn’t have a hand in it) listening to this song (Linkin Park’s “Somewhere I Belong”) and felt the need to post it.  I think it shows the journey, with its highs and hows (consolation & desolation), that most of us here (and anywhere) are experiencing each day as we come to know the Lord deeper and more intimately each day.

— God bless & be holy!

I also found this piano version someone posted:

poisoned Pickle burger @ Sonic

090705-2151_Sonic-drive-thoughAfter communal Night Prayer, on our way to return of Hertz rental car (for our trip to Mt Rushmore+), we drove through Sonic to celebrate having a car to get around in (we’re getting a bit tired of the bus system).  I ordered a Sonic burger with NO pickles and, (as my colorful history with pickles would have it), I received a plain burger with a beef patty and JUST pickles on it.  We were already on the move and didn’t want to go back, but I ate the burger (minus the pickles) anyways.  My first bad experience at my favorite burger place.  I would have take a picture of the burger, but it was too dark.

[This “Pickle burger” ended up being the root cause of my food poisoning experience over the next few days.]

090705-2152_Hertz-NeverLost-GPSI also noticed that our Hertz rental car came with a GPS that you’d normally pay extra for, but with Brian’s shmoozing of the Hertz counter-girl (with stories of Pittsburgh & St. Petersburg), we got it for free (which is exactly what it’s worth).  It’s called the Hertz NEVER Lost, but any emphasis to a name like that should be a clue it should be called the ALWAYS Lost … not the most reliable.  I wish I brought my Garmin … i miss her (Cassandra) voice.

Natural Family Planning (NFP), Catholic birth-control

June 29, 2009 5 comments

090629-0820_IPF-Natural-Family-PlanningToday’s lecture was on Natural Family Planning.  The first hour was a presentation in Riggie Hall by couples that teach the program from The Couple to Couple League (CCL).  The second hour was back in the classroom for question-and-answer session with one of the couples.  A lot of great info and lots of great questions.  For the basics about the Catholic view on birth-control and contraception, check this out.

What is Natural Family Planning (NFP)? NFP is a way of following God’s plan for achieving and/or avoiding pregnancy. It consists of ways to achieve or to avoid pregnancy using the physical means that God has built into human nature.  Today’s NFP should not be confused with Calendar Rhythm Method taught in the 1930’s.

NFP-Umbert-the-Unborn-trendyNFP consists of two distinct forms:   Ecological breastfeeding is a form of child care that normally spaces babies about two years apart on the average. Systematic NFP is a system that uses a woman’s signs of fertility to determine the fertile and infertile times of her cycle.  Couples seeking to avoid pregnancy practice chaste abstinence during the fertile time of her cycle.

Systematic NFP consists of various “methods” or systems that seek to determine the fertile and infertile times of the cycle. The “Ovulation Method” focuses primarily on the mucus sign.  Other couples use a temperature-only form of NFP, and some use the cervix sign in combination with either the temperature sign or the mucus sign.  We were taught how to use a cross-checking system called the Sympto-Thermal Method (STM). It uses all the common signs of fertility in a cross-checking way.

A FREE 156 page manual is available on-line at NFP and more.org in PDF format called Natural Family Planning: The Complete Approach by John and Sheila Kippley.  Basically, there is a chart (blank available in pdf format) that is used to track the changes in cervix, cervical mucus and temperature daily.  (In one hour, I think we learned more about the female anatomy than most married men do.)  Each variable has a code at the bottom of the chart to note:  (from chapter 2, pdf)

NFP-menstrualcycleTEMPERATURE (when a woman wakes up) is taken with a digital thermometer (oral, vaginal, or rectal).  Before ovulation, the waking temperature is lower than it is after ovulation. In the five or six days before ovulation, the higher levels of estrogen tend to depress or lower the waking temperatures slightly.  After ovulation, progesterone causes the waking temperatures to rise.

Before ovulation, the CERVIX undergoes four changes: (1) cervix rises slightly; (2) the mouth of the cervix (cervical os) opens slightly; (3) the tip of the cervix becomes softer; and (4) the cervix secretes a mucus discharge.  Around ovulation or usually right after ovulation, these changes in the cervix are reversed.

Before ovulation, the CERVICAL MUCUS first appears as a somewhat tacky substance and then becomes more fluid. It usually starts a few days after menstruation, but sometimes it can start toward the end of the period. As it becomes more fluid, the mucus becomes slippery and stretchy, and usually produces sensations of wetness on the outer lips of the vagina (the vulva).

Besides bombarding us with lots of science, they were proud to note that “We have no doubt that married couples who are properly instructed and motivated can practice the cross-checking Sympto-Thermal Method at the 99% level of effectiveness for avoiding pregnancy.”

NFP can also be used for couples who are trying to have a baby.  We also had the option to visit the Pope Paul VI Institute located in Omaha, NE that does extensive medical research dedicated to providing morally and professionally acceptable reproductive health services.  They include the CREIGHTON MODEL FertilityCare System and NaPro Technology that has helped women conceive children, while respecting the Catholic Church view against in-vitro fertilization.

NFP-HormonalForecaster-STM-chartThe Couple to Couple League (CCL) offer classes for couples and have computer software to help track all the variables into cool colored charts (I could definitely see guys getting into this … like me).  They said some couples have it on a laptop next to their bed (there’s something creepy about the sound of that … but I can see it happening).  The software they offer is CyclePRO, but I couldn’t find a screenshot of it.  I did find another popular ovulation & fertility software available called Hormonal Forecaster with many kinds of visual displays (the STM chart screenshot is shown here).

Besides all the technical info with science and the Catholic Church view on fertility, the idea of personal intimacy of a married couple started to get minimized.  The couples started sharing their own lives and the application of NFP in their marriages.  Through their own experiences, they recommend that the couple always do NFP together.  Even though the woman’s body is where all the signs come from, the husband should be the one to record the readings to actively be involved, pay attention to his wife’s needs more sensitively and find ways of intimacy outside of sexual union during their times of fertility.  They also posted a chart that concluded divorce is lowest in couples that practice NFP.  The chart showed a bar graph of “divorces per 100 marriages.” In 1960’s, it was 26 per 100.  In 1970’s, it was 32 per 100.  In 1980, it was 50 per 100.  For NPF users, it was LESS THAN 5 per 100 marriages.  (I’ve got some doubt about this research … a little too good to be true … no real source cited.)

Other questions about fertility and Catholic teaching can be found here.

Some personal testimonies of Catholic couples struggling with infertility.

Christopher West & “Theology of the Body” (day 2)

090626-0945_IPF-Christopher-West-Theology-of-the-BodyToday was day #2 (see day #1 here) of the highly anticipated lecture by Christopher West, titled “Priestly Celibacy and the Redemption of Sexuality.”  It was a presentation of Pope John Paul II’s “Theology of the Body” directed for us seminarians in our journey toward priesthood.  It was very rich in theological language, yet applied to our immediate lives, especially in the area of our personal sexuality.  It was very well received.

He used a lot of song references from the 80’s to highlight points.  I wrote some points for my reflection as I was trying to keep up:

  • Theology cannot only be “in the head” … it must be “in the will” as well
  • mysticism or neurosis
  • Carl Rainer, “Christianity will be mystical or nothing at all.”
  • Ephesians 5 is the summa.
  • Marriage is liturgy and liturgy is marriage.
  • A married man can become a priest, but not vice versa.
  • First choose between marriage or a consecrated celibate … then discern priesthood.
  • Sang Steve Winwood’s song “Bring Me a Higher Love

See day #1 of lecture, with links on Theology of the Body & video of Christopher West.

Christopher West & Theology of the Body (day 1)

090625-0820_IPF-Christopher-West-Theology-of-the-BodyToday was the highly anticipated lecture by Christopher West, titled “Priestly Celibacy and the Redemption of Sexuality.”  It was a presentation of Pope John Paul II’s “Theology of the Body” directed for us seminarians in our journey toward priesthood.  It was very rich in theological language, yet applied to our immediate lives, especially in the area of our personal sexuality.  It was very well received … and this was only day #1.

He used a lot of song references from the 80’s to highlight points.  I wrote some points for my reflection as I was trying to keep up:

  • 80’s song “Blinded by Science” –> science has blinded us;  our bodies are theological, not only biological
  • U2 song “Desire
  • Peter Gabriel’s song “In Your Eyes” lyrics demonstrate a “twisted mystic” that hints at “Song of Songs”
  • In seminary, we learn to “inseminate” the “bride” (Church)
  • Bruce Springstein’s song “Everybody has a Hungry Heart
  • Bookends of the Bible begins with Adam & Eve and ends with the NEW Adam (Jesus) & the NEW Eve (Church).  This is a great analogy of how “God wants to marry us”
  • Are we eating from “fast food” or a “starvation diet”
  • “Idolatry of body” verses “Iconography (window to heaven) of body”
  • Devil is the “enemy” of human nature (body & soul union).  He wants to separate.  Horror movies show this with ghosts or corpses.
  • On the Cross, the giving “flow of blood & water” is the giving of “His seminal flow” (from St Augustine)
  • Eve “takes” the apple (gift) denying the trust of “receiving” the gift
  • Lust “extorts the gift”
  • Even my will is “grace.”  “All is grace.”

Weblinks to Theology of the Body resources:

special effects left 4 God

EASTER VIGIL @ Cathedral 8pm — a beautiful and event-filled Mass with lots of pictures (’cause it’s the last time I’ll be serving at it).

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090411_easter-vigil-11-bellsSometime during the second reading, the power went out and we had to adjust rather quickly.  It was decided to cut out the “bells” (my job) during the singing of the Gloria because it may drown out the singing if the microphones and organ have no power.  Aside, Javier predicted the power would come back when I ran the bells.  I laughed it off until the power actually DID come back during the singing of the Gloria … so … the lights would have come back during the ringing of the bells!  … A wise seminarian reflected on the event after Mass and concluded it was a sign to remind us that “God is in charge of the special effects.”  — Amen!   🙂

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Beautiful Mass.  The Lord has Risen, Halleluia!

[Note: the last picture fulfills Ryan’s prophecy: “Don’t let Chris take your picture, or it will end up on his blog.”  — to complete an evening of fulfilled prophecies … 🙂 ]

last minor serving

CATHEDRAL — Since I’m graduating from St John Vianney College Seminary (minor) in Miami, FL and (God-willing) moving onto major seminary of St Vincent DePaul Regional Seminary in Boyton Beach, FL … I wanted to take a lot of pictures while serving my last “minor” Cathedral Mass on the Easter Vigil

Here is us seminarians getting vested in our cassock & surplice before Mass.
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As “cross“, my first serving duty was to hold the tray for the Easter Candle blessing.  The items included nails, a knife, tongs for the charcoal fire, and a personalized candle for Archbishop Favalora (that Hector had something to do with).
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here comes the sun

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DOTS: vet + closet

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Vocation talks @ AMHS

February 24, 2009 1 comment

09-02-24_amhs-vocation-talks-3Yesterday (Monday) and today, we did “Vocation Talks” at Catholic high schools.  I, along with Nick and Fenley, spent the day at Archbishop McCarthy High School (AMHS) giving talks in theology classes about the vocations to Priesthood and Religious Life … mainly our personal testimonies of how we came to be in seminary.  There are about a dozen other seminary brothers doing the same thing at other Catholic high schools throughout the Archdiocese of Miami … all in an effort to promote Vocations.

09-02-23_amhs-vocation-talks-1The day was GREAT!  We were well received by all students and teachers with some excellent questions about vocations ranging from general to personal questions on our own discernment journey.  Each of us did about 8 to 10 talks throughout the day … I did fewer than the others cuz I spoke over my 10 to 15 minutes … 🙂 … but we eventually covered all students of the school over the two day period.

09-02-24_amhs-vocation-talks-5We started the day off with Mass with Fr Chris Bartos.  Fairly new to giving our vocation testimonies, we were a bit nervous about sharing out life journeys, but managed to connect with the teenagers very quickly.  The questions ranged from the simple (like “Can you still play paintball when you become a priest?” — my most common questions of the day) to the more challenging (like “How do you know where you’ll be assigned when you become a priest?” and “Why would someone choose to be a diocesen priest over a religious priest?”) to the super personal (like “Are you afraid you may want to get married after becoming a priest?”).  We could definitely feel the attention they gave toward Catholic vocations in their thought provoking questions and comments.

09-02-24_amhs-vocation-talks-6Thank you to the Serra Club for arranging the talks and the staff at Archbishop McCarthy High School for their great hospitality … with extra-special thanks to Fr Chris Bartos and the students who walked us around the beautiful campus as our “guides” each day [there were more than just in the pictures].  They all helped to make it an effective experience and lots of fun!  — Thanks again!

An AWESOME day full of graces, blessings and growth in the Kingdom of God!  — Lunch in their new cafeteria was awesome too … 🙂