Posts Tagged ‘Protector’

puzzling life + guardian angels

MASS – (Fr Alvarez) — Life is like a puzzle.  When we’re young, it has big pieces and the picture is easy to put together.  As we get older, however, the pieces get smaller, more numerous and the picture gets more complicated.  We can only get so far on our own.  We start struggling through confusing pieces, forcing pieces, missing pieces and trying to do too many puzzle at the same time.  Eventually [hopefully], we acknowledge our need for help to see the bigger picture of our individual lives that God has planned for us.

Discovering God’s Will for our lives is what each of us should strive for daily.  That’s better said than done however.  When we have an “extra challenging” calling to a possible vocation, therefore, the busyness of our lives demands a extra-ordinary move to “remove yourself” to more intense “discernment” process like the seminary here.  Am I called the the priesthood?  the religious life?  permanent diaconate?  married life?  single life?   Even in the seminary, however, there come distractions that keep you from exploring the question honestly with yourself.  I guess that’s why we have Spiritual Directors to help clarify your personal puzzle while the Seminary Formation Team help your puzzle grow into its fullest potential, assuming everyone involved is looking at the right picture.  Discernment and formation may sound simple and easy, but I don’t think either word should be used if the puzzle is truly taken seriously … serious enough to stop calling it a puzzle … and embrace it as “MY LIFE” that God drew just for me … with images I don’t want to see … that the Lord reveals as I become open to accept … and ultimately live for His glory … knowing it brings joy … while short-sightedly focusing on the fuzzy gaps that fear clouds in doubt.  [this last line took an hour to write]

Today’s feast day for “Guardian Angels” reminds me of yet another voice I have access to but don’t give an ear to often enough.  Here is the Guardian Angel Prayer:

Angel of God, my guardian dear,
To whom God’s love commits me here,
Ever this day, be at my side,
To light and guard, Rule and guide.

“From infancy to death human life is surrounded by their (the angels) watchful care and intercession. Beside each believer stands an angel as protector and shepherd leading him to life. Already here on earth the Christian life shares by faith in the blessed company of angels and men united to God.”  — from the Catechism of the Catholic Church; 336.

DOTS — Rector’s Conference on “Obedience” — VP debate in HD

Psychological Test Results

A head-mounted eye movement recording device was used for psychological tests (1962)Today I got the results of my psychological testing (part of my seminary application).  It involved a full battery of tests (2 full days of 7 types).  I was a bit excited to get the results, but not as excited as I know a few friends of mine are.  They’ve been waiting for empirical evidence of everything that’s wrong with me for years.  Well, he started by saying I did very well, so I think I passed.  — HA HA to all you haters!  🙂

The psychologist basically read my report out loud and answered questions about it.  I didn’t feel comfortable hearing him read back my interview responses (my blog must really sound bad to readers).  I forgot the names of most of the tests and can’t remember most of what he said, but I did manage to jot down 2 test results that I recognized.

My IQ test came out “above average” with 118.  Not to sound vane, but it sounded low.  I think it’s on a scale from 0 to 200 (with average being 100) and I have an engineering degree.  Well OK, getting a engineering degree and changing to pursue the priesthood sounds pretty dumb, but give me a break, I took the test at 8am and I’m not a morning person.  Then when he detailed my highs & lows I knew the test was flawed.  I was high in “vocabulary” and low was in “mental calculations & memory.”  That’s not right!  My memory may “blow,” but vocabulary is not my thing.  I was also high in “picture arrangement,” but low in “picture completion.”  What does that mean?  So, if the priesthood doesn’t work out, I can be a Feng shui designer that never finishes a job.  All in all, I guess I don’t have a learning disability and ADD, so if I flunk any classes, I’ve got nobody to blame but me.

The second test I remember was the Myers-Briggs personality test.  I came up as a ISFJ which is supposed to be the following:

ISFJ = Quiet, friendly, responsible, and conscientious. Work devotedly to meet their obligations. Lend stability to any project or group. Thorough and painstaking, accurate. Their interests are usually not technical. Can be patient with necessary details. Loyal, considerate, perceptive, concerned with how other people feel. Likely to put others needs above own and take responsibility seriously. Can be extremely uncomfortable with conflict or confrontation. 

It sounds like I’m a big “sucker” that everyone walks all over.  Then I found ISFJs, according to Keirsey, belong to the temperament of the Guardians and are called Protectors and that sounded a lot cooler. 

Guardians are observant and cooperative. Protectors, Inspectors, Supervisors, and Providers are the role variants contained within this category. Guardians seek membership or belonging and are concerned with responsibility and duty. Their greatest strength is logistical intelligence. They excel at organizing, facilitating, checking, and supporting. 

Some famous people who are “protectors” include Jimmy Stewart, Mother Teresa, J. P. Morgan, Tsar Nicholas II, & George H. W. Bush.

I guess knowing who myself better from a psychological view helps me to appreciate strengths and weaknesses to better balance everything.  As I write this blog, I wonder if I’m giving too much information about myself and being an even bigger “sucker.”  — Kermit?  Anyone?